You know what you can take this fucking school and shove it. Nobody makes any fucking sense and everyone talks around in circles because they have no idea what the fuck is going on. Honestly, its a fucking college. Not a high school. They should be maybe just a little more professional than that level since they are the next level up. Ther is no shit together and they are heartless and cannot admit when they have made mistakes. Thought I would double check the rules and procedures of freshman having cars before I brought mine so after checking the website and it says that freshmen CAN have cars not to exceed 2 weeks per year as long as they pay a dollar a day. So I brought it back here thinking that I could because the fucking school website said I could. Only to get to public safety and be told that I couldn't? FUCK THAT... I mentioned the website and she said I had to get approved by some lady in friggen Ely across campus. Now wouldn't one think that the website should say "Under certain circumstances" or "If subject to prior approval" or any bullshit like that. But no, it simply said I could and appeared very hassle free. So I haul over to see this lady that rudely asks why I need my car. It's easier on my family number one so they dont need to tread two hours here only to tread another two hours home, they DO have lives you know. She was like parking has been really tight this year and thers no more places- being easier to leave is not a good reason. After I explained that I did not drive 2 hours here for this bullshit and NO WAY am I about to go home so my mom can bring me back then haul back home herself, and after she remarked that I should have gotten approved first, and after I said that its a good thing the website said that cause I wouldn't have known otherwise, she gave me the week. Which means Mom has to bring me back on Sunday. Which means a shitty birthday- not only is it a Monday night with nothing to do, but now I don't even have my car so I can't even go out ANYWHERE and have to stay in on a boring Monday night FOR MY BIRTHDAY, while everyone else got to go out and have an awesome time for their birthdays. Right.
Lets see what else.... School sucks. Not particularly Westfield State College, but just the concept of school with studying and tests and everything else has been bothering me lately. I want to go back to work and work my way up to management. So we have all these possibilities and I'm most likely sticking to: going home, going back to work, hospitality program at NECC. I don't know though. There's a lot of other stuff. I kind of got into things here and was feeling good for a while. Cheering is AWESOME and I have been waiting my whole life to do it because of conflicts during pop warner and high school. I really don't want to give it up, but logically why stay and be miserable over everything else because I enjoy cheering? That's wicked stupid. There's also Dave, which I will get to, but in short I'm picking up a vibe from him that if I go home it's not going to last.
Now.. Dave. Everything started off awesome. Like remember when I tried to describe it I said it was kind of like a dream and I was floating? I don't know what happened to things. Maybe I started being unhappy around here and turned bitchy? Maybe he just has little trust in me which makes me feel down? Maybe, maybe, maybe. There's millions of possibilities and I dont know which one(s) contributed but something went wrong somewhere. Which sucks. A lot. I don't know why, but I feel like a lot of it was me, which is horrible. But I'm sure there's no one to blame and things just kind of happened this way, but I just FEEL like it's me. So the day before we would have been together for a month, he decided "a break" would be a good idea. That's where we are right now and I don't really want to talk about it anymore.
Steve picked me up from the away game in Worcester on Saturday. He was supposed to actually go to the game and take some pictures for my parents since they couldn't go, but we all know Steve. Shit happens. Hey, at least he made it right when the game ended so I didn't have to wait for him, right? It was Laura's birthday and we went to his mother's house to spend time wit the family, after, of course, we went to the mall so we could get gifts for Laura. Aaand I had to get something for Haylee since I missed her party a few weeks ago and I have NEVER missed one of her birthdays. So we went there and Gayle had made THE BEST food (as always)- there was scallop pie, steak tips and filet, herb chicken, you name it... Then I hung out with Snow White for a while (that would be four-year-old Haylee in her awesome dress) until it was her bedtime.
Sunday I kinda took to myself, went to the mall and caught up with a lot of friends I have working down there. Got my eyebrows done, you know the usual. Jimmy's with the rentals for dinner OF COURSE. It was all good, till it was time to head back to WSC... and we all know what happened when I got here and went to get a temporary parking pass... Between being so pissed about that issue and confused about my general life, I'm ready to be done. Time to lay down...